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Sometimes God grants us moments of clarity...I had one of those moments last week.
Let me see if I can clearly communicate my simple and somewhat obvious revelation:
On a regular basis...
I look back- at the days or hours that I’ve missed with my boys (age 3 and age 1). Whether it was me choosing to spend time doing something with a friend or whether work took me longer than I had planned...I feel guilty. Even if it’s advantageous and worthwhile...I struggle... I feel like I’ve missed out on time with my husband and/or kids.
I look forward- at the tasks that lie ahead. I think about the busyness of our schedule...I become overwhelmed. Even if it’s advantageous and worthwhile...I struggle... I feel like I’ll miss out on time with my husband and/or kids.
Sometimes I allow distraction in the now, like technology: phone...tv...computer....PINTEREST...to keep me from engaging in the moments that are available and matter now. Many times, because of my constant connection with technology, I am presently and voluntarily missing out on time with my husband and/or kids.
These scenarios whether thinking back, looking forward or being captivated by technology, so often take me out of the now and FURTHER distract me from the opportunities that lie right before me. I have this very moment, the here and the now to take advantage, interact and engage with the people I love but many times I’M NOT BEING PRESENT.
So effective immediately...I’m going to make every attempt to actively BE PRESENT. When possible, no more being disengaged by dwelling on the past or future when in the now are my husband and kids waiting to connect...I’m going to redeem this moment and BE PRESENT as a wife and mom.
That being said, I’ve got to go spend some time with my husband.